Friday, December 25, 2009
I Ain't In The Dirt Yet: First Post
Well, I'm still here! No, life has not gone as I would have hoped. I have had ups and downs in my life and have recently experienced more than my fair share of downs. What happened to all my dreams? Where is the old Danny that was so energetic, excited, and motivated easily? Well, I want the old Danny back... I don't care for this new Danny very much. So what do I do? I'm a smart, educated professional. I love my job and do my job well. As a friend pointed out last night, I have achieved many accomplishments in my life that I should be proud of. He feels there is more to come. I said I wasn't so sure. So what happened? Depression happened. Yep, I said it... that word that nobody wants to talk about... those commercials that you feel uncomfortable watching on TV... yep, that depression! It's real and it can affect anybody... and I'm one of them! Yes, I've done everything I'm supposed to do... counseling, doctors, medication... but it's still there. So how do you overcome something you can't control? I DON'T KNOW! I know I can't be alone... but what do you do next? How do you get your old self back? Will I ever get the old Danny back? Maybe not... but you know what, I'm gonna try! I'm gonna fight this thing! Maybe I can still achieve my dreams... maybe I can turn something bad into something good... maybe I can help others who are going through something similar... Maybe I can get the old Danny back. Cause you know what... I Ain't In The Dirt Yet!!
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I second that emotion :) I want the old sheila back and not just as a mask, if you know what I mean. I too have done all the "right" stuff but it's still here rearing it's ugly head at inopportune times. Hard to shake too. impossible even. but I have found there are certain things that make it rear it's head higher and faster and a few things that seem to help - getting enough rest for one which is very hard to do when you are up at 3 am pretty often. I see from the time on another post that you have that issue as well. make a deal w/ ya, you keep fighting and I will too - hugs, dear friend. this ain't the Titanic - at least not yet.
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ps I can't figure out the profile thing so I have to do anonymous